“There is a Native American parable about a grandfather who says, I feel as if I have two wolves fighting in my heart. One wolf is the vengeful, angry one. The other wolf is the loving compassionate one. When asked which wolf will win the fight in his heart, the grandfather replies, the one I feed.”
Catherine Ann Jones
I woke this morning feeling tired and dreary. I flopped about a bit and had some tea. I grumbled a lot and emailed my friend Mary in Michigan. Aimee, the cutest puppy on the planet, and I went to the car to ride to the cemetery so we could have more time to enjoy our walking around…….and the car wouldn’t start. The steering wheel and key to turn car on were locked.
I cussed a bit, muttered a lot, and we walked to the cemetery in the sun shine and worked up a bit of a sweat.
Long story short as they say sometimes, things began to happen: I called CAA, they called me, I emailed stuff, I received calls, I talked to CAA tow guy, he jimmied the steering wheel and all is well and I felt like a dummy.
Sometimes it takes a boost from the outside world to get life going. Sometimes we get lost in feeding the growling wolf inside and forget to take care of the loving, compassionate, happy, wolf who loves the sun and is great at taking walks. The very nice CAA tow driver showed me how not to let that happen again, so I learned something and that feels good and now I’m a little bit smarter.
I don’t know-is it really just a matter of how you look at it? If I look at the happy side I am more likely to be happy? If I let grumbles take over that is what life will feel like to me?
Yes, probably that is really how it is. If I give more attention to one wolf, the other will probably decide to go somewhere else. Sometimes it’s difficult to find the energy to feed the right wolf. And sometimes the universe helps out and monkeys with your car so you have to call for help, so you get some outside input and get to talk with a very nice person, so you just begin to feel better.
- I am very grateful to CAA. I find they always respond quickly and efficiently.
- I am grateful to Herman the tow truck driver who was willing to see if he could be helpful before dragging my car across town
- I am grateful to Aimee for needing walks so I most days get out and always feel better for it.
- I am grateful Joyce and Rick, the team of helpers who come every three weeks to keep my home and life operating successfully, come tomorrow.
- I am grateful for a good sleep last night even if I did wake up less than cheerful.
Blessings always, Nancy