I am choosing to give myself luxury and pampering. I deserve it after all these years of being careful and spending wisely.
Jewels. Gems Colours. It is spectacular looking out my office window into my back yard and the back yards of many neighbours. I see shades of yellow, orange, shifting shades of green, bright red Japanese maple in my own yard. Glorious. Autumn is about slowing down, beginning to hibernate, thinking of depth and intimacy and change. It is also about brilliance and spectacular and aliveness and joy.
I love looking out my front window at all the magnificent colours that behold me. My eyes are longing for colour. I leave the stained glass light on my bed side table on into the morning and early in the evening because I like looking into that room and seeing the coloured light. I turn on my dragon fly stained glass floor lamp in my living room early these days so I can look and smile at the bright red, blue, green, and yellows.
It has now been a very long time since I have written. Not for lack of thinking and wondering and speculating: Part lazy, part busy, part internal shifts and changes and feeling very vulnerable. I do some of my best writing when vulnerable. AND the opportunity to be maudlin sometimes feels too great to risk.