I’m tired and clumsy today. I broke a precious bowl made for me by a dear friend. It just slipped out of my hands. I was entertaining friends Clo and I used to entertain together. I miss her presence as co-host. We had very different ideas about how to carry out the role of host. She expected herself to provide a full meal fit for royalty and I tended to go for cheese and fruit, nuts, chocolate, and wine. Today I long for suggestions. What I make up Clo would suggest we offer our guests, I would not be able to provide without her guidance. I would, however welcome creative problem solving with her.
So many people across North America are suffering and scared by severe weather this winter. And rightly so! To not have heat or food, to not feel safe, to be isolated and maybe hurt and not have access to help is terrifying. I wish I could be of concrete help somehow to these people in need. As I focus on being safe I realize I have resources and information and probably skills that many others may well not have access to. I again remember how blessed I am.
Clo was with me this time last year. She cooked lamb for Christmas dinner. One year a while back she cooked a whole pig in our oven for Christmas dinner. She said she wanted the grandkids to have all kinds of experiences and this was one that gave her gourmet chef self a great deal of pleasure. That year the family went to the Nutcracker Suite Ballet during the holiday. We took a limousine so we could all be together and not have to stress over parking. This year we went to Aladdin and took a limousine and had champagne. What a hoot. We all dressed up to the nines, as my mother would say and we toasted Clo and remembered how much we love her. It was lovely. Her presence was felt throughout the holiday. The sting of her absence was felt just as much.